Karen Beth Sligar

I am unapologetically in the place in my life I will not argue with anyone, I will state my side and walk away. However, I also am adamant in the same place in my life that I will not take any crap, I will stand up for my children, myself and what I morally believe is right without wavering regardless of others feelings. I am in the place in my life of acceptance in the loss of dreams, for memories that shall never come and my inability to change the ultimate future. I am in the place in my life where I know I am and have been the best Mother I am capable of and I painfully accept I have made mistakes in the raising of my children. I am in the place in my life that I am letting go of shame, pain, notions, expectations, labels and burdens that I have allowed myself and others to have placed on me; I am instead showering myself with all the positivity and love I never felt worthy of deserving. I am in a place in my life of peacefully moving on, not to a higher social status or better wage bracket, not to a new lover or friendship; but to calmness, acceptance and preparedness. My future is not unknown, My past irreversible, My todays are not exceptional, My eternity irrelevant. All I have is not what I am given, it is what I take, what I am willing to endure, it is the burdens I am willing to carry, it is the heaviness I am willing to accept as strength.